“Have I not chosen you, the Twelve? Yet one of you is a devil!”…. (John 6:70).
It is quite possible to believe we have heard from God when we have actually heard from the devil. This is a treacherous place to be, but it is the place our hearts can go when they are hardened towards the love of God. It is often the place we go when we choose to protect our own hearts over caring for another person.
I have found in my own heart that when I hear wrongly from God, it’s because I wasn’t humble enough to receive what He wanted to give me. More often than not when I receive a word from the devil into my heart and mind it is because I’m listening more intently for it than the voice of God. Not because I don’t want to hear from God, but because I have not taken an approach of humility in my life.
I think one of the main reasons why we have such a hard time hearing from God is not because God isn’t speaking, but because we are not prioritizing others over ourselves. In fact, just yesterday I was having a conversation with my husband and I wanted him to understand things from my perspective. I wanted him to side with me and what I was wanting. Yet, I heard the Lord say, “in humility consider others better than yourselves, Heather, don’t you think I’ll take care of you? Don’t you think I can make a way as you humble yourself to prioritize the needs of someone else?” I have found in this season of life that God is most certainly faithful and true. Letting go and giving up things doesn’t mean we lose our identity, it means we start to find it in the Lord and HIs great love for us.
I believe one of the greatest keys to unlocking the voice of God in our lives is not found in making ourselves heard and known, but making others a greater priority in our lives than we ever have. In our culture, we have been given a false message that the individual is of greatest significance, but truly, as we surrender our own wants, needs, and desires to care for another person, we take up the beauty of the cross. Then and only then can we experience God’s resurrection.
I am tempted to become impatient and angry with God because life still feels a little unfair at moments. That’s because my perspective is wrong. Truly, if God is good, why is not good enough for me today? Because there is something in my heart that is unsurrendered. There’s something in my heart that is living without grace and is centered upon me. When the centerpiece of our lives becomes the love of God we can live in the light of that truth. We can bask in the person of Jesus because we can walk with freedom prioritizing the Kingdom as we seek to care for the hurting.
You see, a few months ago I became one of those hurting individuals. I didn’t always experience the love of God from others, because they spoke out of their own pain. It is imperative that we hear from the voice of God in those moments. Sometimes his voice comes from the woman whose husband just left her, the child whose parents just got divorced or the neighbor down the street who just lost his wife to cancer. God’s voice calls us to, “care for that person,” but our hearts say, “I can’t. I’m building my own kingdom.” Oh Lord, forgive us.
Lord, we are selfish. That’s really our biggest problem. It’s the ego within ourselves that cares more about us then someone else. We care more about our needs, wants and desires than caring for the hurting. Lord, give me eyes to see them. I was one of them and I want to extend your love to them in a way that is transformational. In Jesus name, Amen.