Before a downfall the heart is haughty,… (Proverbs 18:12).
While having an argument in the kitchen one day with my husband, I blurted out, “Grow up.” Immediately, after the words left my mouth I was hit with deep conviction and wished I could go back and undo what I just said. How foolish I was to blurt out such disrespect. But, if I could be quite honest, it’s what I said, because it was something I had been storing up in my heart and mind for far too long.
That’s how sin goes. It ravels around our hearts over time, until it just starts leaking out. This is why it is paramount that we, “Take captive every thought and make it obedient to Christ.” There are other times when I start to suppress thoughts, thinking, “Ah, it’s not that big of a deal.” Quite honestly, the only reason I’m suppressing it is that I’m trying to avoid having a conversation with someone about it. This isn’t helpful either.
Therefore, I’m learning that as I grow, so should my mouth and my willingness to have hard, but loving conversations with my brothers and sisters in Christ. The devil always fills the silence and he’ll start filling you with a myriad of thoughts that are sent only to steal, kill and destroy unity between you and others. I’m totally there right now, in that place of temptation to give into the thoughts of the devil. Yet, I have been crucified with Christ and it is no longer I who live, but Christ who lives in me and I have the mind of Christ. Therefore, through the resurrection power of Jesus, I can walk in freedom, knowing that I wear the victors crown and instead of believing the lies, I can walk in the light of truth.
In order for us to walk in truth, we must replace negative thoughts, with praise and the beauty of God’s word. Praise to our heavenly Father thanking Him that even though life doesn’t make sense and it’s hard, we trust Him and believe that He is good. The truth that is found in knowing and applying His word to our lives. This is what I love about God, that in an instant I can carry my thoughts into another room, His throne room, where He purifies them and makes them good.
So today, I’m choosing praise. I’m also making a decision to go and have that hard conversation. Even though, part of me doesn’t want to. Yet, I realize that without it, the devil will keep filling in the details, so it’s time to go and let God fill that silence instead. Don’t be surprised though that if and when you go, you’re not well received. Give it to God. Go with confidence knowing you’ve done all you can before Him, but don’t cower in fear, be bold and let your heart be full of love as you go to have a conversation to restore unity between you and others.
Lord, I want to store up good things in my heart. I don’t always do this. Forgive me, God, when my sin starts to leak out. Abba, I embrace all that you have for me because I know that it is good. Thank you, God, for loving me. Thank you for giving me a new heart and mind, in Jesus name, Amen.