It was now about noon, and darkness came over the whole land until three in the afternoon….(Luke 23:44).
The Lord spoke something into my Spirit today. As I was reading, I found myself scanning the Scriptures to simply find something that “speaks to me.” Instead of searching the Scriptures to simply find God I came looking with the attitude of, “What’s in it for me.” Ouch….
This is the same kind of attitude that filled the world with darkness and placed an innocent man on the cross to be crucified. An attitude of selfishness that’s constantly asking, “What’s in it for me?”
One of the saddest realities for the son of God was not His death, because truly, God brought about the resurrection, but it was the betrayal of those He had walked so closely with during His life. It was the darkness of the heart of man that selfishly chose what was best for their own agenda instead of caring for another person. When we neglect to care for people in the Kingdom of God, we too will throw them up on crosses to be crucified if it means the advancement of our own personal agendas.
Whenever this kind of evil enters into our minds, we must be quick to submit it to the Father. This keeps us from pressing forward with our own selfish motives asking, “what’s in it for me” as we join with the crowd, shouting out our demands.
Jealously and bitterness have a way of making us shout even louder. In our pride, it’s hard to let other people be better than us. This was an issue in the religious leader’s hearts that they could not overcome. If we don’t overcome it, we’ll leave people to be crucified too, if it means the protection of our own ego. In my own selfishness, I’ve done this, because I wasn’t secure in who I was in Christ.
If we truly want God’s light to shine through us, we must begin to ask ourselves not, “What’s in it for me,” but, “What gives God the most glory?” “How can I love, support and care for this person in front of me?” “How can I make them more important than myself?” This is when light enters in.
Lord, forgive me for my own selfish heart that is more often than not crying out, “What’s in it for me?” I need your restorative love. Jesus, enter into the deepest places of my heart and mind in need of your metamorphosis. Yes Lord, make me brand new. Forgive me for when I have crucified others to protect my own ego, in Jesus name, Amen.