Your clothes did not wear out and your feet did not swell during these forty years… (Dt 8:4).
God will provide for you. I’ve seen Him do it for me in those desert seasons when my income was drastically cut, my resources diminished and my strength was worn out.
I’ve also seen Him provide for me in those small ways. Ways that I often don’t notice. It’s easy for me to overlook His provision because sometimes I come to God with my expectations of what His provision is supposed to look like. Therefore, it’s hard for me to embrace what He has offered me with joy and trust.
I can’t tell you how many times I have looked at God with scorn because I did not care for His manna. I wanted something else; something different. His manna wasn’t enough for me, because my expectations of Him outweighed my ability to be thankful for what He had given.
It wasn’t until I heard Him say, “Heather, am I not enough for you?” And even still, my heart wrestled inside of me. Yes, Lord, of course, you are enough, but this is really hard for me to let go of all the things I wanted and wished for. But you see, sometimes God provides for us in the desert, not what we’ve asked for, but what we need of Him so that we can grow in Him. Manna was His daily provision for Israel. Grace was His daily provision for me. I’ll be honest, sometimes, His grace wasn’t enough. It should have been, but my anxious and selfish heart wanted more.
God provides not for those who are seeking it or demanding it, but for those who are resting in it. You see, there’s a difference between someone who is constantly demanding things of God and another person who learns to rest in what He has offered. I had to keep reminding myself that with the Lord is a bounty and I can feast daily upon that. Truly, that bounty is what is best for our souls.
Let go of your expectations, they’re only keeping you for rejoicing in the good provisions that your Father has provided for you. I’m still reminding my heart of that on a daily basis. For truly, He loves to give good gifts to His children.
Lord, you love me. Thank you for your grace and for providing for me just what I need. Help me now to walk in your truth. May my trust be in you alone, in Jesus name, Amen.