…in worshiping their gods, they do all kinds of detestable things the LORD hates…(Dt 12:31).
The other day I had to ask myself, “Heather, why do you place so much importance on this in your life?” Truth be told it’s really about trying to hang onto control for me. It’s about a deep-seated fear in my life that I’m still wrestling through with Jesus. It’s something that I struggle to trust God with and have or most of my life.
If you have a blind spot, an area of discontentment in your life you’ll do and say things in order to protect it or somehow seek to constantly satisfy it. It’s easy for me to see others live out of their discontentment, but I’ll rationalize and justify my own. Mostly because in the back of my mind I’m trying to convince myself that I’ve got a good handle on this thing. Truth be told though, it controls my thoughts throughout most of the day. It’s something that as much as I wish I had a good grip on and had a healthy relationship with I know that’s not always the case.
Has your idol ever kept you from engaging in deeper relationships with others? Has it ever stolen away your joy and peace with God? Has it taken precedence over spending time with Jesus? Mine has. Our unwillingness to let go and seek refuge and contentment in the Father is really about control. It’s about a rebellious heart that doesn’t trust God.
Therefore, I’m asking Jesus for a different heart because I don’t want to be controlled by things that only steal my joy and contentment in Christ. I want to walk not in my blind spots, but in my freedom. Truly, it’s there that I find rest for my soul that so often seeks refuge in all the wrong places.
Lord, you satisfy the thirsty soul. You are so good. Cleanse me now through the power of Jesus. May my heart long for you. May I be forever satisfied in your love, and not my idols, I pray, in Jesus name, Amen.