A Heavy Heart
The Lord is close to the brokenhearted
and saves those who are crushed in spirit….(Psalm 34:18)
As I awoke this morning my heart felt heavy and sad. This year has been so challenging for so many. I was told just yesterday of another dear sister in Christ who lost her life. Then while checking social media found out that a young mother passed away unexpectedly leaving behind her husband and three week old child and I’m just heartbroken. If 2020 has taught me anything, dear friend, is that we were not made for this world. I long, more than ever for that new world. Truth be told, I’d really just love to take my little family and whisk us into that new world with Jesus right now, but you see, dear friend there’s something about perseverance in the face of trial and suffering that is part of our journey to that new world.
I’m not sure why that is, but someday I’ll understand. I don’t know why mothers and fathers lose their children. I’m not sure why children lose parents and pestilences hit our world. Truly, there are all terrible tragedies that we face in this life when a spouse loses their beloved husband or wife.
I keep getting this sense that maybe God is preparing us for something. A bit of a rebirthing and renewal. It’s easy to think that maybe this is the end so lets just keep our heads down and ride it out, but beloved, as the Scripture tells us, things will get much worse and we must choose to persevere as we continue to bring the gospel message to the ends of the earth.
I’m not sure where life meets you today, maybe, just like me, you feel a bit saddened by the troubles of this world. You’re reminded of your friends who are walking through divorce depression, financial turmoil, cancer, death, loss, etc. and your heart is grieved for them and maybe even for some of the losses you’ve experienced in 2020.
Dear friend, would you just take a deep breathe with me and choose together to offer praise to the Lord?
Honestly, I don’t think the answer to our present troubles is found in 2021, as if the lights will simply turn on and all of 2020 will be blasted away. I think the answer is only found in the love of God. Truly, He’s been available for us in 2020 and will be in the years to come. I’m not sure what God is doing, but I want to sit close to Him, in HIs lap of love, so that I might experience His joy and His abundant life in the here and now despite all the loss and suffering this year has brought. I am praying for you, just as I would ask that you might pray for me that together, with our Lord that we might grieve together the things we’ve lost and cling, with great purpose to the one in whom we have great hope.
Lord, I don’t always understand this journey. I want to choose praise today as I sit back and grieve some terrible losses that myself and my loved ones have faced. Oh Lord, we cling to you, our only hope, in Jesus name, Amen.